14 For we know that the law is spiritual, but I am of the flesh, sold under sin. 15 For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate. 16 Now if I do what I do not want, I agree with the law, that it is good. 17 So now it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me. 18 For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out. 19 For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I keep on doing. 20 Now if I do what I do not want, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me. Rom 7:14–20
I have been stuck here for way too long but I cannot read this without feeling a ton of emotion. I live this battle everyday and I find it very interesting that Paul, one of the pioneers of our faith, battled with the same things! Also kind overwhelming at the same time! As a believer I hoped that I can get over that hurdle in my walk with Christ and never have to look back… I hate the fact that I continue to do things that I hate and that my love and my appreciation for what Christ has done sometimes isn’t enough to stop me from making a selfish sinful decision. Lord please give me mercy! On one side I’m trying to stop doing things that don’t honor God and then on the other I’m just supposed to be OK with this flesh inside me making decisions that I don’t really want… How do I go on like that?? I want to destroy my flesh. Let it stay dead and nailed to the cross! Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord! Without Him I would be completely lost. Thank you Lord for saving me when I didn’t deserve it! For making a path for lost souls like me to find you and get to experience life with you today! Lord please remove the sin that dwells inside of me and help me to follow You! I am not OK with allowing sin to live inside me and I pray You give me the strength and courage to remove it!
APPLICATION:
Stay in the Word. I need to keep God’s Word at the front of my mind when I’m going through my day. Believe with faith all the truths of God! Don’t listen to any lies in my head! Stay humble! I don’t deserve anything!!! Pray more and serve others!! Put my family first! Have mercy on me Lord!